It's Our Burden To Bleed

sometimes i feel that the world is against me. everything goes wrong at the same time. today seems to be a prime example of that.


i just finished my lit and i realise that by this week i have to do 2 maths tutorial worksheets done by monday, rewrite my chinese compo cos i failed and i want to get a better score and 2 history tutorial outlines. pfft as if 1 wasnt hard enough already now i gotta do 2. thanks cj! thanks alot for nothing.

then rafa benitez tries to be a smart ass and play paletta and insua in defence today. totally threw the entire team off balance. but i guess we're aiming for the semi finals this week so we had to give stevie, jamie, pepe all a rest. but sigh. i'll face another day of endless taunting from manure fans about how they can overcome a 2-0 deficit and we can't.

i'm just gonna launch into a slightly desperate sounding little rant but yea..if you, the reader who you might be, doesnt get it then all the better..cos i dun think anyone really know whats going on.


i'm really just...confused. about everything. studies. you. i'm totally gone in my studies and i believe that i'll get retained. the prospect of it looms large.

about you.. so much can be said. but i'm really unclear over everything now. its quite hard knowing nothing's possible but yet i just can't let go. . i'm just...really really confused. this really shouldnt be the time for all this..but yet, i've been sucked into the whole need for companionship again. and to think i was doing so well.

how did this even start? i cant even remember..

perhaps..it's best i stop. for the sake of my sanity.i really cant do anything anymore. all that i've done and all i'm doing is trying to help.. even if it doesn't go down well for me..



now as i reach this turning point
i realise my fears and dreams
were nothing but truth and lies
there's nothing i can do
but wait and see it through

ok im done being emo and despo sounding. thank you for putting up with that if anyone does even read this blog. i dun think i've ever been this way in quite awhile now. not since an an..

and thats another story.but no mention of an an now..its meant to have all been left behind at my old blog.so yea..

in the immortal words of isaac lim

Be positive.
Do it well and you'll have a story to tell.



cheerios.

thanks for the memories

urghhh this week has been horrible in so many ways.


liverpool losing to chelsea in the semis,man u winning,the heavy rain,the laziness in me,the poor results i got for my assignment,having to relive the horrors of hillsborough through articles and seeing the players all rmb that day and the ugly way that scum piece of a tabloid,steve heighway's announcement of his retirement


but there were good things this week.

my PW grp, lit work scores, liverpool's Youth Team doing the team proud by retaining the FA Youth Cup,getting some parts of my CIP hours for NYAA completed,spending time with my classmates,watching prison break with nat,terence,seekei and tiff at tiff's hse

sigh..this week has not been a good week. a few more weeks to mid years and im totally unprepared.did i make a right choice coming to cj?the stress and workload is really killing me. i'm getting less and less sleep as the exams inevitably come..help...

there's just so much shit these days..it's really hard to take everything in stride and do my best in everything. i really want to do well in my studies but sometimes i feel that i really cannot take it. but i dun want to let my parents and sister down. they were so proud when i did rather well for my Os and managed to get into cj. although they say they accept whatever decision i make in terms of my studies when i had to decide my path, i know my dad wanted me to go to a jc.

my personal life has also taken a step back since i got into cj. during the time when i had a stint with the soccer team, my social life was seriously....zero. i was always in training of heading off to support the team in friendly matches leading up to the A div.

but everything has an upside right? coming to cj let me to know some really good friends and people. i love my class...really.we rock. 1t05 is like...super nice. and soccer has led to make more new friends.

everything's just coming to a head now...i'm just...tired.really really tired of everything.i'm sorry if this post is damn emo or whatever...just...really needed to get things off my chest.


im out.

a day with minimal sleep

well its like nearly half an hour since i woke up today. i'm dead tired and might be a little sick. i dunno. maybe its just my mind not wanting to go school and face the bloody history test coming up.


anyway the weekend started off with LC and i being pangsehed by Tiff and Seekei. so we headed into town to meet LC's friend, Joan. Went subway to catch a bite and had a good laugh at butches and a girl with navel hair. headed to Heeren next where we just walked around. oh and i'm so getting a HIM shirt from HMV.


sat began like any other saturday but went to eunos at like..820 to meet Tiff, Seekei, Terence and Nat. Nat ended up coming later at like...11? so we went to Tiff's place first. watched Accepted which was a damn good movie before we watched Prison Break from like...10sth all the wayyyy to 530 in the morning. damn pro right. everyone but Tiff fell asleep at some point in time. ohh ohh and we ordered macs at like...1sth?maybe close to 2sth and it came at 3sth. early breakfast indeed.

then after that we rushed down to kallang to take part as road marshalls to some race thingy for like...an hour before we got to go home. wooo 6 hrs cip in the bag.

after that we headed to raffles city shopping mall to slack and gossip( =.= ) before we ate ben and jerry's for lunch. Zul, Nat and Terence then went to eat BK as well. Pigs. haha.

anyway i'm so tired right now i can go back to sleep. but i have a history test tmr and i gotta go study.



later.

back from hiatus

i'm finally back to blogging.ok maybe not back to blogging. just blogging today cause its a holiday tmr which means no school( yay) and cos its the 5th of april. its a nice date. really.



anyway to update on things, i'm in CJC now and loving the school people and environment. IG 11, with Paddy and Petrina as facils, was great. Made new friends in Kubo, Robyn, Joan, David and Valerie, whom i still talk to quite often compared to the rest. Only regret is that IG 11 is too dead and we didnt have an IG outing. that really is the only thing i regret from my orientation.

got sorted in 1T05. go 05! initially i didnt like my class but i'm kinda attached to it now. which is good. hahah. my class has 12 guys and 7 girls. not that great a balance but nice enough i guess. the guys and are great, the girls are great. I like my PW group. See Kei, Christina, Tiffanie, Terence and I. great combi


anyway that about it for the past month of school stuff. went out with zul, tiff, lim chuan, maj, aisah, joan and see kei to novena for lunch at abt 4 after staying in the school library to pohotcopy our research articles for history. then we went to the tuition centre thingy and realised it wasnt that great. went to my aunts place for dinner and came back and stoned.yeap.thats abt it.


cheers